I know it seems like I'm this strong
person who can get through anything,
but inside I'm fragile. I've had
so many things thrown at me,
and each one has only made a crack.
What I'm afraid of is shattering
It hurts 2 feel that no one is there
4 you
and that nobdoy cares
wondering what your purpose is
or why your even there
No one knows the real me
No one
knows what I'm thinking
No one understands me
No one know how I really feel
No one knows what I'm like under this
mask
No one cares that they hurt me...
My dreams tell me secrets
My mind tells me lies
My heart screams
for help
My eyes only cry
Sometimes i just feel like
Running
away....
just to see who would follow
just to see who really cares
or if anyone cares at all.....
I'm going to smile..
and make
u think im happy..
im going to laugh..
so u dont see me cry..
and even if it kills me..
im going to smile.
I
don't know what to do anymore,
nothing feels the same,
I never see a smile in the mirror,
I only see pain,
pain
beneath my soul,
so deep inside of me
there is no escaping it,
no coming back to a normal state of mind,
there's
nothing I can do anymore.
I'm sick of smiling, & so is my jaw,
can't you see my front is crumbling down?
I'm sick of being somone i'm not..
it's like im drowning and you're just
describing the wate. As good as
it gets,
behind every beautiful thing, there's
some kind of pain ..
<|3
you wonder how it feels ta walk a
mile
inside tha shoes of a girl like me . . . who
dont got a thing too loose could you step
in my shes and walk just
a mile and after
all the hurt still manage to fukin smile
words never [ hurt ] me
change
never [ kills ] me
love never [ breaks ] me
fear never [ shakes ] me
my hopes never [ fade away ]
i never need
to [ break away ]
my tears are never [ here to stay ]
i'm always [ happy ]
i never [ lie ]
yeah..[ o n c e u p
o n a t i m e ]
this isnt
a perfect world
you
smile
when all you wanna do is cry
you act like you’re okay
when you are really falling apart..
but you move on
because there is nothing else to
do ..
even though its slowly
killing you
the girl who seemed unbreakable is finally starting to break
the one who seemed so strong its crumbling apart
the one who always laughs it off is constantly crying
the girl who would never give up, finally quit trying
DEAR REPUTATION,
i'm sorry i have to tell you this.
i'm breaking up with you.
i'm sick of people talking shit about me
it's all because of you.
i'm starting over.
i don't wanna be that girl they talk about anymore.
i regret the things i've done
i don't want to be known for them anymore.
i miss the old me;
the one with tons of friends;
when i didn't have a problem
with wearing a matching outfit with my mommy;
when girls weren't so damn cruel..
when best friends weren't split up
when a smile came easily to my face.
i'm tired of you ruining my life.
i'm sick of you.
so here's my goodbye to you, reputation.
i'll miss you forever
If I could just wash away the pain, all the memories and the shame I would scrub until there was no more stain, and watch the dirty water go down
the drain
she's been thinking
&
wishing she could hide
from the girls with
the comments passing by
its
the boys in bars on friday night
that replace the emptiness inside
she'll be spending her whole weekend
faking
laughs and faking smiles
with her fake friends
So I say thank you for the scars
And
the guilt and the pain
Every tear I've never cried
Has sealed your
fucking fate
I will not be broken
I am the one
One can only feel desolate for so long
Until
one starts to change
Into something the mirror doesn't recognize
I metamorphasize
Just
live and breathe
And try not to die again.
When the shadows beam
Misery remains
I won't leave this time.
Strip
away vanity
Just as you comsume me
Broken smile, starless sky
Save
it all, Say goodbye
You're out in left field
And lacking interest
You
fight the boredom
But it makes no difference
Your mental health, kid
That's what's in question
Keep acting obscure
We'll keep them guessing
You wake to suffer
through the day
Trade a dream for the pay
Well here's the fact, I hope
it sticks
You're just alive out of habit
The thing is
I'm not worth the sorrow
And if you come
and
Meet me tomorrow
I will hold you down
Fold you in
Deep, deep, deep
In the fiction we live.